First Try

I have an asterisk next to my name.  Perhaps its a question mark...I guess that is up to the people who know me, or the people who have yet to know me.  I think that when people talk about me, they will use "but" when describing me...."He is this, but what about that?" 

The fact is, I have been married twice, and quite frankly am embarrassed by that.  I married Wendy for life, but in hindsight, that was never going to happen.  I was young, didn't see the curve ahead signs,  I wrecked.  She was was into drugs...alcohol...and sex, just not with me.  The tape, and glue I pulled out wasn't strong enough to fix what was shattered....so instead I cried.  We have a daughter, and are friends now...look at my FB friends list...you'll see, we are friends.  I forgive easily...its who I am, how I roll.

I married Michelle for life, and in hindsight that could have happened...maybe.  She was hard...very hard....moods were up and down...sideways. She wanted more than I could give...she wanted a knight in shining armour to ride out of the sunrise to sweep her off of her feet....I told her that I don't ride horses, so I can't be that knight, all I could offer was love. She wanted something I didn't have...couldn't give, and I still don't know what that is.  I offered to fix things...to piece them back together, but she said no....so instead I cried.  She did something I can't forgive her for....She took my secrets and used them against me. I really only ask one thing of the important people in my life...that is loyalty.  No matter what....I need to know what I entrust with you, stays with you.  I believe the knife I give you as a gift, should not be pulled out of my back.  We have three sons, and she and I are not friends...look at my FB friends list....you'll see, we aren't friends.  I forgive easily...it's who I am, how I roll.....I thought.

"Look at him, he's a nice guy, but he's been married twice"

I don't think this is the post you were looking for, but this was a lot for me on a first try.  More than I've ever said on this subject, so if you bare with me.....I will promise to do better, because you are my friend...and I want you to know.