The Hangover - The Doug Song

Playlist

These are 20 of the songs in my Favorites Playlist on my MP3 player right now..... If anyone has any suggestions for songs plllleeaasssseee let me know okay??? 

**These aren't in any particular order**

• Forever Young- Alphaville
• Angels On The Moon-Thriving Ivory
• Rusted From The Rain-Billy Talent
• Warick Avenue-Duffy
• Almost Honest-Josh Kelly
• Airplane-B.O.B
• Gravity-Sarah Bareilles
• A Man I'll Never Be-Boston
• Whataya Want From Me-Adam Lambert
• My Immortal-Evanescence
• Pretty Vegas-INXS
• While You Were Sleeping-Casting Crowns
• Simple Man-Shinedown
• Broken Bones-Rev Theory
• Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart-Alicia Keys
• Beth-Kiss
• This Afternoon-Nickelback
• Galveston-Glenn Campbell
• Midnight in Montgomery-Alan Jackson
• Two Out Of Three Ain't Bad-Meatloaf

Roots

I'm not from anywhere. No seriously, I'm not.......I do consider myself from Washington D.C., but that's mostly because that's where I graduated high school.  My dad was in the military, so we were always moving....Louisiana, New York City, Washington State, Okinawa, Texas, Kansas and Virginia.  We literally never spent more than 2 years in any one place.  I myself joined the military, and spent every few years moving. 

Please don't get me wrong, I do feel lucky to have lived in so many places....and was able to see so many wonderful things. It's just that over the years I have come to envy those people who are from somewhere....grew up, married, and raising their children in the same place. 

People Are Cool Too

I love to people watch.  I really like when I can sit somewhere and just observe people (did you like how I fit "observe" in there???). I like to imagine what their lives must be like...what they might do for a living...their family etc.  If you look at the details of a person you really can tell a whole lot...what they're wearing...carrying, reading.

I have always enjoyed the opportunity people watching at airports...because you get to see people from different places.  The kids of divorced parents going to the "other parent's" for summer vacation...the family coming back from Disney (it's always the mickey ears that gives this away).  The college kids coming home from school.  The business people with their laptops..and cellphones, always at work..always networking..making deals.

I like to watch the travelers getting off the plane walking down the concourse....and matching them up with the people waiting to greet them.  You can always tell when they spot their traveler coming down the hallway...the excitement just overflows as they get closer...and erupting right in the middle of exit making the other travelers adjust course around them.

I have always just loved to sit and watch others....ohhh wait wait wait...I have always loved to just sit and OBSERVE others...there that's better.

I really need to start getting my things together...and start packing.  Thank goodness I don't have that much stuff, so once I get started hopefully won't take that much time.  I need to take look at these CDs...I mean I haven't listened to a CD in forever, but I keep lugging them around.

I am feeling better about my decision to move. Once I was able to put my ego aside, and put the interests of my children first, I was able to start getting excited about being closer to them.  Now back to these CDs....

Late To The Party

How come the women I seem to find myself interested in are always taken already?  I sometimes find myself being jealous of other men who seemed to have found the perfect woman....or more accurately, my perfect woman.  Its like they got there before me ya know?   Makes me wonder if perhaps I should have dragged myself out of bed earlier that day, or not had that second cup of coffee.  I mean was it that day a few years ago when I was home sick with the flu...is that when I missed out????

Do you ever think you're always going to come in second? That you seem to always get to the movie after missing the first 10 minutes?  When the first 100 people get a free t-shirt, you're always number 101? Well, I suppose you know what I'm talking about......


I'm really not this depressing of a person in the real world, I swear.

A Few Things I Think

• There should only be two seasons, Fall and Spring.
• The best sports movies are about baseball.
• Romance doesn't always need to involve flowers.
• Foreplay is underrated.
• Except for ice skating and roller derby, nobody cares about women's sports.
• Screw Kindle, give me a real book.
• I don't like local commercials, they're stupid.
• Kissing..awwwwww...kissing...
• The more people say they are individualists the more I think they aren't.
• Yes, there is such a thing as a stupid question.

I have a confession to make...for awhile now I have wanted to get into a purely spontaneous conversation where I can use the word "Hoobastank" at least twice.

Please Be On The Lookout....

I have been wanting to get a new tattoo.  I want a '40s pinup girl.....just haven't seen one I've liked yet.  If anyone sees one they like can you pass it along??? 

Somehow This Don't Feel Like Home Anymore......

I still think it's all pretty fucked up....what happened I mean, but I need to pick myself up...dust myself off and take that first step in some direction, any direction.  It might be the wrong direction, but I feel the only time you're supposed to stay put is when you're lost in the woods.

I've spent a week pretty much closed up in my house...no literally I have.  I thought over a lot of things, trust me when I say "a lot of things".  I need to move....I mean come on, what's here??? Nothing...absolutely nothing.  I think you know where I need to move, don't you? I suppose that is the hardest part of this whole thing....to go back there, but I have missed my boys so much. For them I have to put all of my other feelings aside, and go back there...because that is what a parent does for their children.

You asked me the other day if you had broken my heart.  I want you to know I had to think about that, even put down a few answers and deleted them.  Then I put the only answer that I could put......

And this ain't no place for the weary kind

And this ain't no place to lose your mind

And this ain't no place to fall behind

Pick up your crazy heart and give it one more try

                         

                                                  Ryan Bingham

Pre-Occupied

I have had bloggers block as of late.  I have come to my page everyday intent on putting something...anything down, but just can't think of what????  It's not that I don't have anything to say, because actually I do, but just not ready to put it down yet.  I think that is why I have been unable to post anything this past week, because my mind has been preoccupied with a decision, and haven't really thought about anything else.


Well "Sunday Morning" is getting ready to start, so I'd better be going.

The Haka - All Blacks

In response, my team would do "Shoulda Put A Ring On It"

1930-2010

Thank you, Mr. Steinbrenner

Let's Be Straight Here.....

Man Crush:

"When a straight man has a "crush" on another man, not sexual but kind of idolizing him."
                                                          
                                                                                                        Urban Dictionary

My Man Crushes:

Derek Jeter
Mark Wahlberg (not during the Marky Mark period, but currently)
John Mayer (Right to 3rd place with a bullet)
Will Smith (although I do know that most bi-racial man crushes do not work out)
Brad Pitt (not the Brad who looks like a vagrant, but the one from the Oceans movies, that one)
Aaron Rodgers
Nicholas Cage (but he is falling a bit)

I Can't Sing Either

I wish I were more musical.  I mean don't get me wrong I love music...love it. Music has helped to fill a major hole as of late. I wish I could play either the piano or guitar....probably the guitar because my house isn't big enough for a piano.  I would love to just be able pick it up when I felt the need ya know???

I also wish I had the ability write music...to be able to take feelings, and thoughts and turn them into musical notes.  I can only imagine how therapeutic that must be. How having that gift would be so helpful right now.....Well perhaps in my next life :)

I'll let it go to voicemail

I hate the nighttime....

Back In The Day

Back in the day I used to perform this song to packed arenas. Oh you laugh, but I did, and would get standing ovations too. Okay Okay, maybe it was actually in my bedroom, but if someone can play the *air piano* better than me, I'd sure like to meet them. If my life had a playlist...this song would be on it..for sure.

I promised myself not to write anything sad on here for awhile.  I suppose being a guy, I worry about perception ya know? I worry that if I show to much sadness....to much depression, than that will reflect on me as a man. I worry that it will cause me to go from someone you desire, to someone you must continually check on, and someone who becomes a burden.  Although nothing can ever come of it, I want to remain someone you desire....so I don't think I'm going to post anything sad on here for awhile.  

You're so happy...I can tell.  Thank you for that....thank you so much :) 

Mission Complete

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=2102167018127011904&hl=en#

BACKWARDS!!!...HE'S EVEN GOING BACKWARDS!!!   Oh this is so much better than the one I had in my dream last night...awwwww my day is complete....in fact going to drink a beer to celebrate :)





**...that url isn't working. PLEASE  find one that works...I wanna see it so friggen bad...**



I'm reserving this spot for a picture...and not any picture mind you.  I'm saving this spot for a picture of a monkey riding a unicycle.  I'm going to find one now...will be back, so please save this spot for me okay???

FREAK!!!!

Years ago I read that people's little toes were a useless appendage, and over time will begin to shrink, eventually being gone altogether.  I've been measuring mine...and they  haven't shrunk at all.  I don't want to be the only person on Earth with 10 toes...then I'd be freak.

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Are the days getting longer?  Seriously, I mean yesterday seemed like an eternity didn't it? Not a good long either....I'm thinking this is going to one long week. Yep, one long week.

$8.75?  Is that for just one, or the pair??

YAZ

Holy Cow...You're good

I liked them all, but really liked "Anything Back" and "Breaking Down"......Really good.

http://www.myspace.com/shouldveknownbetterband

Edward after the glitter fades....

I Have An Annoucement To Make

Tonight...well technically last night...I was *Re-Tweeted* for the first time by someone I did not actually know. 

As a side note, the word *hilarious* was used in conjunction with the *Re-Tweet*....I repeat, the word *hilarious* was used in conjunction with the *Re-Tweet*.



We will now return you to your regular programming...

Anti-Depressant or Pro-Depressant: You Tell Me

Let me get this straight about "possible" side affects:

• Headache
• Extreme tiredness
• Suicidal thoughts ANNNNND Suicide attempts
• Ejaculation problems

Hell my ejaculation technique was all I had going for me.....besides when they say "problems", do they mean it's going to shoot out sideways now??

The light came on when I found myself taking a shower, and had brought a beer with me.  Why in the hell hadn't I thought of this before????

Oh no...two of my fish just swam on top of one another and stopped....I hope they don't have babies. I financially can't support any more virtual fish at this time.

I have always thought that even numbers are good...and that odd numbers are bad. Is that considered profiling???

When I go to my pantry to get something to eat...I think that if I eat it then I'll just have to go to the store to buy more....so I don't eat it.  That's not weird is it??

I have an issue that has been bothering me for awhile now, well one besides women not posting pictures of themselves on eHarmony.  I mean let me get this straight....I pay a lot of money for cable TV so that I can watch shows where they do nothing but try to sell me things???

I'm exploring this whole Feng Shui thing. I've angled all of the furniture in my living room to allow for the positive flow of energy.  As soon as I figure out how to reach my door, I'm going to buy some milk.

I think my next romantic relationship will be more animated....nooo I mean it. Something about cartoon women make me think they're more stable than women...who aren't cartoons.

I'm  thinking about moving to a new zip code. One with only even numbers in it.....I'd want it to have a 4.

ROFL ROFL ROFL

3 Doors Down - It's Not My Time

Third Day- This Is Who I am

The Animals - House of the Rising Sun (1964) High Definition [HD]

Penitentiary of New Mexico

It didn't look much better when it was open and I worked there.

This is a picture of my last eHarmony match.

Home Sweet Home

This is where I grew up. Well not really, it was actually in my LSD hallucination, but I like to call it home.

My God, It's 2010? I Started Drinking Back In 2006

Question:  At what point did the "  get replaced with the * ??   Did it happen when I was sleeping????

I Might Have A Garage Sale

Finally....I'll have a friend, but first can anyone lend me a few bucks???


mmmm I bet Johnny might need a friend.....

http://www.rentafriend.com/

I just wanted to start the day with something positive

I'm thinking about going to bed, but not sure why because I'll be back up in like 30-40 minutes, or so.  Every night before I go to sleep...I pray to God to please get me the hell out of here.....I think his answer is to keep me awake all night.  Who knows, maybe tomorrow I ll get hit by a truck or something.....

Opinion:  Should I post this picture?

Cat Humor

I'm into cat humor....does that make me a dork????

Reason #1001

Reason #1001 of why we're friends:

Me:  "So you didn't deactivate your Facebook account you just defriended me?"

Friend:  "I said 'Fuck Facebook', never said I was deactivating it."

I'm going to be chuckling about that all day.  Only I would find that funny, and not be offended....only I would.

Many Rivers To Cross

As she raised the glass to her lips, to take the final drink, she said, “This loneliness won’t leave me alone,” but I knew that she was quoting an old song that we used to listen to. She took the final swallow, after she spoke set the glass down and smiled. I didn’t know what to make of what she was saying, or what she was implying so I just sat back and lit a cigarette. I never thought we’d be here again; on the porch of her parent’s beach condo, drunk, while everyone else who was superficially hanging around all weekend were already headed back to the city. But, (and this is how it always starts) she told me to “Come ‘ere,” and said, “why don’t you love me?” knowing that I would, and that I still do. She never, not for a moment left the periphery of my mind, and for the moment I was able to overlook her infidelity, and the drug use that spurred it, and I could forget the time while driving through the desert on our way to Palm Springs after an argument where she told me to “Fucking die, you proletarian ingrate.” and left me on the side of the highway at a diner for three hours until she came back to get me, crying.

All the shit accessories that come along with her melted away the moment she reached for my still wet swim trunks, and pulled them down. Forgotten for however long I could because I was still in love, and she knew it.

http://www.sincesheleft.com/post/776793799/many-rivers-to-cross

Why do my posts look so different now than they did when I was writing them in the early morning hours with a beer in my hand???  This is just one of the many mysteries of life......

I'm going to let you in on a secret...for the past few years, for those times when the world just seemed to be moving a bit to fast, something I do besides drinking...is I like to put something by George Winston on, close my eyes and think of better times. One of my favorites is his variation on Pachabel's Canon. I don't know why I posted this, just thought I'd share was all.

BedTime???

My cat snores....that's about all I have to say about bedtime.

I think the reason I didn't really like working there, well other then the fact it was a miserable job, was because I trully didnt understand it.  I mean, I'm one guy right?? If you were to line me up and have me count off...I would say "1" and we'd be done. Now what I couldnt fully wrap my head around wasn't so much that there was only one of me, but that there were at least 50 of them. Im not sure where I was going with this post......

sucks

Paranoid??? You bet....

ID Please...

"Look mister, I don't care how old you are....the kid can't drink"

Trekkies Have More Fun

Hmmm I probably should have cropped this before posting it huh?

I Wonder If She Can Cook

When I put "looking for a freak" on my eHarmony profile, this isn't exactly what I meant.

BFF :)

Come on guys...leisure suits???

Ohhhh What Did I Do??

I can't help but wonder if John Hancock woke up on this day over 200 years ago and regretted two things,  having that last beer margarita, and that White Out hadn't been invented yet.

Free Hugs

I'm Just A Workin Girl

If I were a prostitute, I'd sooooo be wearin these.....

Yeah, but it's what is on the outside that gets you beat up.

Voltaire speaks to me....he whispers in my ear....this is what he says, "Take me to the supermarket...drop me in the checkout line...chics will think you're deep"

Ben

 I want to be Ben Sanderson....and I want to be him now.  He was a man onto something...a goal...a reason to wake up in the morning.  I so wish I were Ben Sanderson...well not really...but I do.

I'm proud to be from here...from the United States. I was proud to serve my country...proud to have been a part of the first Gulf War. I'm sorry I don't have a video...or a picture with red white and blue in it....Im sorry I don't beat my chest, or stand up on a soap box proclaiming that Im proud. I am though...

Sleep is like a unicorn....rumored to exist, but I doubt I ll see any.....

Dear Diary

I think we are human for a reason.  We aren't born angels....we aren't born saints.  As soon as we take our first breath of air...we are flawed.  I'm not a religious person so won't use all of that bullshit rhetoric about "God's image", because let me tell you, if I was born in God's image...he is one fucked up spiritual being.

I think what I am getting at here....at 4:21 a.m., is that I gave up worrying about being perfect a while back.  I live my life the best I can...but sometimes "wrong" just seeks me out, and I can't help that. I do not look for wrong, it just seems to know where I'm at from time to time.  I do honestly consider myself a good person...a good man, and I think to know me, most people would tell you the same thing.  I just come with a disclaimer, and I'm very open about that.

I am in love....in love with someone 10 out of 10 people would say is the wrong person.  I would be the first to agree, but love found me...love said "Honey I'm home".  Shoot, I could come up with more reasons she is the wrong person faster than my local preacher...but you know what? I'm in love....After writing on the chalkboard 100 times "I will not fall in love with the wrong person"...guess what, I'm still in love.  After, climbing to the top of a mountain and seeking out the advice of a 100 year old guru wearing an "I Know Everything, Just Ask Me" t-shirt, guess what? I'm still in love.

Now, luckily the wrong person is a better human being than I am...I guess she is more God's image than me, because I would take her in my arms faster than you can say "What in God's name are you doing??" Thank goodness she won't allow that to happen, she knows others are involved.  The only "right" I am able to muster in all of this is not to cause her problems. To only ask her not to disappear back into her life without me...to leave a window cracked so I can peek in from time to time and see her smile.

I know I'm not perfect, and gave up that charade a long time ago....I'm in love with the wrong person, and well, I'm good with that.

Wow gorgeous kids....who is their mom?

Ohhhh no way....you'll pass out before I will.  You can be my Elizabeth Shue....

Tonight I'm going to continue drinking....then write filthy posts....Go drink more until I forgot I posted anything, then came back and pretend you wrote them to me. 

You Be The Man...No You...

This movie is about two young women struggling with a forbidden love....I haven't seen the movie, the picture told me.

I loved what you wrote at 2:46 p.m....I will keep that forever.

God, I really am self-centered :(

I

It's nice to have someone to share a "look" with.  To know that there is someone out there who, just by looking into your eyes, knows what you're thinking at any given moment, without having to utter a syllable.  It's nice that they aren't able to read minds or anything, that wouldn't make it special, and besides reading minds would only make it a parlor trick.  To read your mind they wouldn't have to know you at all, would they?  What makes the "look" so special is that they know what you are thinking because they know you...know how your mind works...know what is in your heart. 

I am in such a good mood today, not because of the beer...but because I got to laugh today....someone made me laugh today...on the phone..out loud.  It's been awhile since she and I had a conversation that involved laughing :)

My Sexual Waiver Form...Sign At The Bottom

Do you think this could be the reason I don't have sex anymore???

You see "Giant Ice Cock"....I see free beer from "6pm-4am"

I'd Be Asked To Leave

Is it just me...or does anyone else think that one day your MP3 player will be needed to DJ a huge cool RAVE party or something...and think about this fact when you add songs??? Is that just me???

Gay Is Not A Choice

With the music I have on my MP3 player, I could never run for public office......Yes Enrique, you can be my hero....

I Even Scare Myself Sometimes

I have over 400 songs on my MP3 player, and listen to like 3 of them.  So I've decided to spend my valuable time going through each song, and using a very democratic approach, am deleting any song I have "skipped" on 3 or more consecutive occasions. 

Now, the question I must seriously ask myself is this....how in the hell did the theme from "Rawhide" make the cut????

New Look???

The new Wonder Woman???  Hang on let me check to see what my teenage hormones think about this, but I think we all know the answer.